Missing The Mark

Oct.24,2018.

We all set expectations on some level. It is said that we won't achieve much if we don't at least set goals. Boy I'm good at that part. Yet the acheievments don't always turn out the way I envisioned them. Slightly off the mark but an achievement none the less. This is what I call the playful side of the universe (how I refer to fate). I am so fortunate to be able-bodied enough to have an excellent quality of life and attitude.

I am constantly amazed at how we just don't know what's around the corner. Not just each new day but each new second. It's easy to lose sight of how quickly all can change when we are entrenched in our regimens.

Best to make your mark and see what how close you get.

7. Resolution

(12/28/13)

I wish I could, on a weekly basis, expose my mind to the world, open for judgement and invite maybe even beg commentary on what I've written. 

Time does not allow it.

6. Knowing

December 2013.

Occasionally, or most often, and I know you've all felt this, there's a knowing deep within your gut (as we say).  We have this intrinsic ability to just know.  Some of us have tried or have been told to shut that ability off, or have allowed ourselves to become very numb to it, distrusting it, confused or overwhelmed by it.  Even then, I wonder if every cell in our body tries to convey those messages that we are meant to acknowledge with little subliminal or supraliminal flashes, stimulating low level emotional activity. Or maybe it's louder, in the physical, seemingly unassociated form.  This knowing can easily become blurred by intense desire.  Still we seem to always have some small part of us speaking the truth, knowing what is right.

5. Lost and FOUND

(12/8/13)  I'm getting better at having intent. Unfortunately I am reminded, most often in a desperate moment, when observing others and realizing I need to resume the practice. Otherwise I may take life happenings for granted.

Many people advocate intent. I employed this most of my early life. Forgetting to keep the pattern going, I realize I've lost sight of intent and discomfort rises as a late reminder. Unfortunately it is usually accompanied by fear.  Fear of never getting back on track. Fear of having lost what I believe to be my true self.  For me, that precious feeling of having every single cell in your body be truly joyful, bubbling with gratitude and life just falling into place as if I intended it to be that way.

I have said before, and will now accentuate with even more vigor.  Surround yourself with people who truly add to your life. Every aspect of your life.  Sometimes we can feel like we don't have a choice and are somehow trapped in a situation. That really truly isn't the case.  Why would it be? We all know it is us who ultimately make the final decision. Set yourself up for more conscience decision making.

4. Movement

(10/15/12)  As the self proclaimed modern day gypsy stretches or squeezes herself into a new location, there is seemingly continual movement.  I have learned how important it is to easily move into the space I have to paint both physically and mentally. It is everything to be present in order to be productive. Yet these collected moments of focus are as short for me as for many others.  Creating a space to create can be an art of it's own.  A safe place to expose my soul. Setting the mood for pleasure and coziness in my first studio outside my home.  So it begins!